She sought out Ethan, her anxiety rising when she saw him standing just a few feet away. In the midst of hell, she remembered the gut-wrenching discovery of the divorce papers: Ethan’s anger, his accusations, and the knowledge that her marriage was over.
What was he thinking? There was so much unresolved between them, but somehow it didn’t seem so important now. Did he love her? Did he really want things to be different between them?
She wished she had the answers, but she was too exhausted to pick apart her feelings and her emotions. Way too tired to try to guess what Ethan might be feeling.
She looked up and caught his gaze. His eyes were a raw storm. She flinched at the pain she saw there. Unable to maintain the contact, she ducked her head and looked away again. It was a rejection. She knew it, and she hated that she couldn’t do more than just sit there so helplessly. She squeezed her eyes shut and prayed that she didn’t completely crack open for all to see.
“Rachel?”
The doctor’s voice shook her from her thoughts, and she turned back to see him holding out those innocent little pills in his palm.
Panic leapt into her throat.
Garrett was there in an instant. Ethan started forward but then hesitated.
“Let me have them, Doc,” Garrett said. “I’ll make sure she takes them in a little while.”
She looked gratefully at him. He understood.
The doctor reluctantly stood and held out the pills to Garrett.
“If you need me for anything, just have Marlene call. I’ll come right over no matter what time.”
Ethan shook his hand as he started out. “Thank you for coming so quickly.”
The buzz of activity overwhelmed her. Everywhere she looked, people stood. No one paid her any attention except Ethan and Garrett. They were all busy processing information.
She leaned back against the cushions and propped her cast on her chest. She’d never felt so tired in her life. So completely and utterly beat down. Only fear kept her from succumbing to the deep need for sleep.
“Can you talk to us now?” Garrett asked.
Behind him, Sean and Sam both closed in. Sean motioned for the other officers to stand back. Sam stood off to the side, and for the first time, she made an overt invitation to him. She looked up and then held out her hand.
His eyes widened slightly in surprise, and then he came forward and sat beside her on the couch. Ethan eased down on her other side.
Sam reached for her fingers and squeezed. “You know we’re not going to let anything happen to you, right?”
It seemed like an absurd statement in light of all that had happened to her, but she still took comfort in the quietly spoken vow. And she believed him. Believed them all. Now that they knew—or they would know—the threat, they would do whatever was necessary to protect her.
“Can you tell us what happened, Rachel?” Sean asked.
She slipped her hand from Sam’s, raised it to her temple and massaged deeply as she sorted through the barrage of information pouring through her mind.
“I recognized him,” she said simply. “When he came into my hospital room. I saw him a year ago in South America. He was talking to Senator Castle and two other men.”
None of them looked surprised by her statement. Maybe they’d already figured out a connection between her supposed death and the most recent events.
“Do you remember what they were talking about?” Garrett asked.
She nodded. “Drugs. Senator Castle outlined a trade-off of sorts. The drug cartel would ‘give’ him a few victories. He’d take his ‘tough on drugs’ campaign to the heart of Colombia, score a few huge victories in preparation for his bid for the presidency. In return, he’d open up the drug lanes into the U.S. The cartel also sold out a few of their competitors. It was a win-win situation. Castle looked good and the cartel got unfettered inroads into America and a monopoly on the drug trade.”
“And you overheard all this,” Sean said.
“Yes. I had left the tent where we were administering shots to the children, to get one of the little girls who had wandered off. Castle and the other men were behind the child’s family’s hut. I recognized him. I remember being so shocked to see him there. He had been a supporter of the organization I traveled over with, and now I knew why. It was a perfect cover for him.
“I ducked behind one of the water cisterns when I figured out what they were talking about, but it was too late. The man who came into my hospital room saw me before I could slip away. Castle told the cartel to get rid of me. Make it look like a tragic accident.”
“Jesus Christ,” Ethan muttered.
“But they didn’t kill you,” Garrett said. “Do you know why?”
She swallowed and let her gaze skitter away as painful memories of her captivity flooded her mind.
“I was their insurance policy. The cartel’s. They staged my death to satisfy Castle, but they kept me alive so that if Castle ever reneged on their bargain, they could pull me out and say, Hey, remember her? Look what we’ve got. It was the ultimate blackmail plot.”
“Holy f**k,” Garrett breathed. “Pretty damn good plan.”
The corner of her mouth lifted into a half smile. “They didn’t count on KGI.”
Ethan tucked his hand behind her neck and gently squeezed her nape. She started and turned her head to stare at him. He held her gaze, and this time she didn’t look away. There was so much she wanted to ask, so much she needed to know, but now wasn’t the time. She wasn’t entirely sure there would ever be a time. The idea that her marriage might well and truly be over hurt more than the broken arm, and medication couldn’t fix that kind of pain.